and now it's time for crazy nayo to come out.. lately i've just been feeling really drowned.. everywhere i turn.. there's drama.. everyone who i feel needs to be there for me is turning there back.. hypothetically.. (i dont even know if i spelled that right) but watever.. anyways.. i'm in a state in my life where i really need to prioritize wats best for me.. in every aspect.. that include's career, lifestyle, people.. and each one of these important issues in my life are letting me down.. well i've finally officially decided.. that i;m moving to Japan for a little while.. i'm gonna go be with my daddy.. i miss him alot.. i havent seen him in like 6 years.. sometimes.. i think of that fat little man.. and my heart starts to throb.. i can feel the tears swelling up behind my eyes. and my sinus crunching up as i try to hold the water behind.. and then it eventually goes away.. but i just feel like i'm constantly being disappointed by the people around me.. and i just need to be around someone i know loves me.. i just hope we dont quarrell too much,.. we are definitely not people who can be in the presence of each other for a very long time.. i love him.. but we are like oil and water.. we dont mix well.. well enough of my emotional mumbo jumbo.. have a nice weekend.. it's friday.. lets try to enjoy~ much love..